Saturday, September 06, 2008
Setelah sekian lama tak update, hampir-hampir terlupa username dengan password pon ade....
Amaazing things happened in a matter of a week. After a sorrow of about the whole first semester, Allah compensated everything in a week! Alhamdulillah ya Allah!! And if I were to count His blessings, o my God o my God,how could one ever say Allah has abandoned you?! He Gives without counting, He Gives and Gives like the pouring of the rain, tsatjaajaa (rujuk an Naba'). Alhamdulillah, I give credit to the Ramadhan month of barakah...
What other things that I spend most of my time on other than clinic and dentistry right? (yeahh a bugger) So here goes...
2nd semester started like the worst ever. Everytime I did something in the clinic, it must have been the wrong thing! No one was more kalut, silly, foolish than yours truly. You name it, Ive done it. One of my early 2nd sem patient (whom Ive ripped off my list for not turning up over and over again) needed an ortho band around a broken tooth, and while preparing the tooth to fit the band, the unstable shaky hand of mine successfully cut the adjacent teeth as well. So smart of me not protecting the adjacent tooth with a Tofflemire or something. The danger of being in dentistry- most of the things you do is not reversible eg when picking up the bur and cutting enamel and dentine. Once its gone, its gone. Unlike picking up a stethescope, or drawing blood from someone which will regenerate in no time... Demonstrator was madddd....decided to stay by my side and NURSE FOR ME till the rest of the procedure so she could keep a close eye on me!!!
What else...ahh so many that I couldnt keep track of them... Breaking a primary model of my crown patient's because being so smart, even after a warning from a friend, decided to make a special tray on the model without seperating with wax layers. Guess how the special tray material clinged onto the model?! Which took me another clinical session just to take another impression to make a new model from. Patient wasnt happy.
The worst of all, the ultimate sin in dentistry, a perforation during endo. At the WORST level. Thats as bad as having your patient dead on the surgical table in a surgery. After like a hundredth visit to get his endo treatment done, I added up to the problem by creating the perforation. Sweet huh. Best part? patient came in 2 weeks later with pain and swelling. I think I was close to be kicked out of the clinic by the demonstrator. It was as if I could see in her eyes with her saying "how come this dangerous girl is doing dentistry?" Huhu I made it up, demonstrator was extremely nice, kagum how she could be as sabar...
The most recent of all, I forgot to Vitrebond line the same endo pakcik punye amalgam restoration. And 2 days ago he reported severe sensitivity when metal spoon touches the filling- galvanic reaction. I mean, that could have been avoided if Vitrebond lining was used!! I was like "can you not get your spoon too deep to the back so it wont touch the filling?" and "did it get any better? I hope it will go away one day" Boohoo. I'm so gona ask Prof Tyas what to do. Poor pakcik
With all of the above said, plus the pressure of inability to find a patient for a practical exam, my life was a catastrophe. What with the bashing in exo clinic where the demonstrator just purposely asked the already nervous me ANATOMY questions in front of the patients! How on earth would I remember anatomy after 2 years huhu. Consequently the patient no longer trusted me and demanded the demonstrator to be there when I was to do the procedure. Sad. (ahaha after that I got so determined and went back and revise my anatomy, the next time when I bumped into the demonstrator he actually asked the SAME question again, and answered it away with confidence. Huhu. Ok, I just need to be more rajin and revise my anatomy so I wouldnt be a dangerous operator. Checked)
And what happened in the first 5 days of Ramadhan? Allah compensated it all! 1st Ramadhan - Post core cementation in crown patient and temporary crown made for his front tooth. Went ever so smoothly. Amaaaazing how He made it eaaasy for me!! Patient walked out happy chirpy with his new tooth.
3rd ramadhan- practical exam day. Thank God I finally got a chair for the day when patient could come in. I was VERY nervous in the moning, but after waiting for examiners for so long, and after a chat with patient's wife, I was nervous no more when examiners came over to ask questions. Best part-one of the examiners was Dr Westmore, and knowing him, he asked me only basic questions as how one would normally do in normal GP session. One of the biggest hikmah I didnt get to do my exam in my original session- where they got Dr J who just bombarded them with questions; he even made up some words that no one ever heard of. And he practically failed one of my group mate for not being conservative in cavity prep - I wonder what he would say If she left caries material in order to be conservative...Poor group mate
And my exam went OK- I was quite unsure as they didnt really say anything- and was unsure whether I left some caries material as there were some dark spots that I could see although they were hard. Alhamdulillah, I did not receive any email saying I failed, meaning I passed it!!
4th Ramadhan- I finally completed the endo patient's endodontic treatment, after the 10th appointment! Obturation was good, both demonstrators liked it, pakcik finally got it done, I finally completed 1 endo treatment and eventually learned the technique to take a periapical radiograph of front tooth. And treatment was finished on time. How could Allah be kinder to me?
And I dont want anything else but the ability to prostrate and humble down in front of Him, pouring my heart out with thankfulness and full worship, and giving my heart to no one else but Him....
~~*posted on*~~ Saturday, September 06, 2008
