Thursday, July 01, 2010
After so many months of abandoning this place and not writing , I think it is safe to write again that no one would come and peek hehe. *tengok kiri kanan dengan muka saspen*. Lemme see, the last thing I posted was the invite to my nikah, which was done ermm 4 months ago. That was when I was in Melbourne and aww masih belum bertukar status. Now Melbourne seems so far away. I must have lost my touch to writing, being unemployed stay at home housewife, I do nothing much that could help the reciprocation of the brain cells.
Latest update to life is of course our recent finding of the presence of the third person in our life. Alhamdulillah, we can't be happier or more excited. Allah, where do I start..?
OK, I had the instinct since the very first week. I just knew it, don't know why. Baby is now in her 4th1/2 week (most probably 2nd week of conception, JUST implanted), and we found out just a few days ago. Many had happened in between, I had a fall in Alor Setar, almost had an x-ray but didnt go for it, took some medications, took multivits with excessive content of Vit A that could harm a developing fetus but stopped because 'I had an instict'. Pheww, I hope Allah pelihara this little baby of mine.
I sure had mild symptoms of fatigue and random craving of food, but that was it. When I missed the red light for JUST a few days, couldn't help but UPT straight away. =p. Terbeliak mata when it came out +ve. Went to the doctor in the evening and explained to her, she was like "tapi baru miss beberapa hari lah. cemana awak boleh buat test dah? saya tak yakin. kita boleh scan tapi selalunya tak nampak apa2". I didn't tell her I just 'had an instinct'. I was emotion-less when u/sound revealed the pregnancy sac. OK maybe more like speechless. Doktor tetibe pulak jadi bersemangat and excitedly said "haa tu tu 'kantung kehamilan' (lawok la term ni, 1st time dengar)". She measured it,which revealed the size of a 5weeks sac! Teruja muka husband I tengok u/s tu hehehehe lawok juge. I resisted the temptation to say "told u I had an instinct" because I didnt tell the doc anything =p.
Alhamdulillah, although we didn't plan to have a baby this soon, Allah surely has another plan. He thinks that we are both now ready to carry the responsibility to raise a child although I highly doubt myself "cane ni U, I manja dengan mak pun tak habis lagi" kate cik puan kepada suaminya. It's true that self-building process should happen all the time, and there is never a graduation. If you were to wait until you are ready to get married, or claim yourself ready for a child, I dont think the day will ever come. Berani nak kata dah ready; mesti ada je benda tak cukup I tell you. Konon kata dah ready skali didik anak tak jadi, haa aiyo tatayo. Tak ade pun orang yang boleh buat sesuatu perkara di dunia ni dengan perfect and zero defect walau seready mana dia sekalipun. Jadi, silakan untuk terus belajar. I dont think I was ready to be a wife when suddenly we decided to held the nikah. Until now, there are so many do's and don'ts yang I dah langgar seolah-olah tak pernah baca buku and attend kursus perkahwinan, hence the note to self to re-read this books again. That's why a process is called a process I guess.
Alamak, so there goes the reminder for me to start reading Tarbiyatul Awlad again and find some pregnancy books for reading. Tak jadi la buku tu nak letak atas hantaran kwang2. As far as pregnancy symptoms is concern, I think I have mild ones. Tapi tu pun rasa tak tertanggung dah. Just nausea, have not thrown up thus far, mild cravings I wont call mengidam, cuma susah nak sesuaikan makanan dengan tekak. So far I have requested different food every night. Kuey teow sup masam, mi kari, soto, megi asam laksa (huhu), all for dinner. Alhamdulillah lunch boleh paksa makan nasi lagi. Cuma kena buat mind-war sikit "i can eat this, and this is yummy" chant.
I have to mention, kesian jugak dengan the husband yang jugak kena pregnancy symptoms, sampai MC 2 hari minggu lepas, yet this week kena gi kerja, yet balik malam-malam kena tolong basuh baju dsb dan beli makanan craved by the mummy. Huhu. Sebolehnya tanak susahkan dia, tapi alhamdulillah Allah gave me a greatly understanding husband yang greatly ringan tangan menolong. Kesian pencinta kambing yang tengok saja sekor kambing depan mata tanpa perasaan dan nafsu untuk makan hehe. Jazakallah khayr, besar pahala you encik ebi (nickname for abi kpd baby =p).
And I dah agak dah, mesti dapat arahan balik kampung from the mummy punye...adoi la
~~*posted on*~~ Thursday, July 01, 2010
